How can you do so much....

...yet nothing is done. I believe this to be the disease that is sweeping the nation attacking adults of all kinds. I therefore choose not to join these said adults and will continue to not grow up. But it really does pose the question, is anyone really "grown up." 
What even defines that? It's completely different for different people and some definitions are definitely better than others. I've always wanted to be that fun and crazy person who just didn't quite fit in. I don't know if that means I'm a self-fulfilling profecy or that the fact I was drawn to characters like me. I really don't seem to "fit in" but then who really does. I guess I should say mine is "louder" than others and I also offend people especially when I don't mean it. I think its my super power.

So many people are freaking in college and spazing out. People who once had A's are now making less than their standard. The tests stress everyone to the limit. Other's have their true selves finally showing through. I don't know if I'm crazy or what but I seem to be doing fine. I don't freak out, and I'm getting good grades (all some form of an A as far as I know). Not to gloat but it confuses me a bit that that is how I feel. It worries me a bit, but whatever.

I LOVE this fall weather, if anything makes me feel fantastic its this! And I love that its October, the time for Oktoberfest and Halloween. I watched a scarey movie last night with my mom and it was a cross between Twighlight Zone, Goosebumps, and a horror flick all in one.

Couldn't sleep last night and I did that thing where you're awake but sleep for small periods of time. I finally got up at 4 and went back to bed at 4.30. Wouldn't ya know it that that's when I really fell asleep and then next thing I know it's time to get up and go to class.

Today is super booked and I have like a chunck of time from like 2-3.30ish... who knows, I'll probably go back to CA.

The older I get the more I'm intrigued about how things work and I want to conduct expeiriments, but i have neither the equipment nor help that is required. I want to see blood under a microscope. I want to mix with with different concentrations of saline. The list goes on.
Man do I want a violin, I will teach myself how to play and it will work. I don't know how but it will.
Now at this point in the blog writing process I have decided that I will go back and put pics in in places, but before I do I will take a before pic.
Before:

 

Take note of the bar on the side, that means TONS of writing. So I'm gonna break it up a bit.