i'm a bored college student not studying for that quiz tomorrow

You,

are so strong,

so lively and carefree. 

Always a smile upon your face, 

making the best of what will be.

You,

always there to cheer me up,

to readjust my focus.

Knowing somehow that I, that we, would make it through,

with your presence as my solace.

I never told you, how much I really cared, 

that you meant everything to me. 

Helped me when I was scared. 

Your guiding light showed me the way

yet I took another path,

all for the sake of a power play

For all your blessing i became disenchanted

I never thanked you once

Took everything for granted

You,

truly care for me like no one ever has,

the one true friend, in life's lonely land.

Made me believe in myself,

no matter the test, I would still stand.

You,

comforted me in the darkest of times,

when all hope was lost, and I had lost my way.

You knew my every secret, the monster inside,

yet you helped keep that same monster at bay.

Yet here we stand,

back at the beginning,

me drowning in water grasping for your hand.

To break this pattern I must try,

For this is not how relationships work, 

and I just might die.

I think I'm so clever, 

I can do all, but somehow I know,

your way is better.

Now i'm breaking the cycle, the toxic twists and turns.

We're in this together,

you,

and 

I.

Its now or never.

You and I against the world