Well FINALLY!

Finally finished my very first semester of college. I may not have gotten straight A's, or even a B in one case (potentially), but I'd say I've accomplished a lot. I'm now down with the first half of A&P, done with Survey of Chemistry (at least until I have to take part 2, but that won't be for a bit), owned my other two generals classes and got into the nursing program.
I've learned a lot! Not just from the books either. I've learned lessons like you won't always get A's (ok I already knew this, but it kinda extends now to B's and is more fully reinforced). You will bomb some tests. I've learned how to study more efficiently, even if it was through mistakes and I have not fully mastered that yet. I've learned when to study for things and tests.
I mean I'd say I did pretty good for someone who has slacked a bit, although in relation to chemistry is doesn't matter if you slack or not, your grade is the same. I've watched 3 seasons of Merlin, 2 seasons of Dead Zone, watched the season of Lie to Me and Psych (which has a DOUBLE FEATURE TONIGHT). I haven't read a ton, but I'm getting back into it and learning to balance things and that you should have fun and not just study all the time. I now know HOW important it is for me to socialize with others. I also know that I evidently cannot really make new friends, and the ones I did make was more like they picked me... which actually sounds arrogant but I think it's becuase I'm funny (whether or not a lot of it is intentional is debatable) and potentially, dare I say, friendly. I mean I must not be that bad to hang around as I do hang out with some other students and they seem to enjoy my company as I do theirs, not just trying to survive our encounters.
I have discovered this wicked awesome thing online that allows you to get free books, but you also have to send free books... it's like lending in a more permanent way.
I've watched movies, worked out at the gym, gone out with friends (RED ROBIN) and found out a little about life. so I will make this a list as this is REALLY long for a blog

1. Holy cow life is messed up. It rally is not all rainbows and butterflies. But life does go on.
2. No, people do not yield when they are supposed to. Actually it is potentially NEVER.
3. I found out I may potentially have a whopping dose of bad luck... for real, I'm getting suspicious.
4. I'm evidently a complete nerd as I could really spend hours in barnes and noble... just being there is awesome...

PICTURES

New obsessions

Potential addiction!

Probably an addiction... and its bad as they are candy.... the real fruit was ok this... this is potentially deadly

OK, so I know this is my bagillionth blog today, and I tend to do that but...

I'm pretty sure this is kinda cathartic for me. That and I am avoiding studying. I did just finish a paper though, but I have to write another one that is due tomorrow. It's ok, it's a reaction paper on my opinion on the whole class, which is a religion class. So it's not like it has to be awesome like papers have to be for comp 101/102

So since we got netflix, and I'm bored, and have no life, and like to watch TV, and like to do non-productive things and not study, I have started watching a show I had forgotten about, called the dead zone.... Ok so it is about a psychic, but it is a bit more sciency. And I wasn't looking for that riveting of a show with tons of meaning and awesomeness... Though this one awesome in its own right.

pictures?

Oh chemistry, you bring out the worst in me... especially cussing wise

Maybe its magic... or maybe its Maybelline!

every minute of every day

tumblr blackout!

that awkward moment you wake up in someone else's bed... Oh but it's okay, there's a hot naked guy in it

what IS at sau

what is NOT found at SAU

this is me, sad like the gay kid off glee who falls in love with straight people... and when he finally falls in love with someone who is gay, doesn't get him

or Mr. schue on glee... that man is sad, he literally has NO ONE... all he has is the glee club

On your child and vaccinations

Yes dear people, it does quite appear that the infant mortality rate was going down since 1850 without the help of vaccines. However, should your child have gotten the disease, they result was the same Most believe teh decline has to do with better living conditions and more education. But let's think about it. Yes it is really uncommon for us to find most of the vaccinated diseases now days... that is rather in the US and western Europe.
Now let us say that there is a 1 in 2000 chance your child will die... you can fix this significantly, making the chance of your child dying next to none. So, you going to save the kid or take the chance. Oh so your worried about what is in those vaccines? Then you should definitely look into what your eating becuase I can assure you it will probably kill you long before the vaccine seemly attacks you(how the attack happens is unknown as there is no connections yet found...)
Well, let's just say if someone did get one of those viruses over here becuase they came from like Africa, or it was a biological weapon (obviously by a stupid terrorist as most would be vaccinated), either way... you're going down, more specifically your child.
You can do as you like, I'm sure your child will not get ill... I'm not going to take that chance..
PS modern medicine is not out to get you, that is insurance companies. Okay maybe there's that mad doc or something, but there are less infant deaths and life spans have increased. Not only that the quality of life has increased.

PPS good luck getting your child into school, or college, or into a job! Most places require you to not be a target or random deadly diseases... even at CDC....

Watch out for those potato chips. yeah those in your hand. Science has shown a DEFINITE correlation between lifestyle and health issues...

WAIT also they don't give your child autism... that's probably you and your genetics codes fault so stop blaming others..

This shall be an ode to SAU

O SAU, how  you have misrepresented
what you are and what you do
you have not ever had tasks completed
So to you I say, fuck you

As the days creep by

Each day is closer and closer to the dreaded exams. Some loom over my head like the eye of a storm. One small move and then I'm going to be swept away! Went to Gatlinburg for It Is Written which just means mass gathering of Adventists. Yeah, I went shopping instead. But there was free food; which was all VERY Adventist. It snowed, but not before it rained teh day before. Overall I really did enjoy the trip, even if it was with family... if you just don't talk a bunch and just go with the flow everything is fine... yeah I know, sad right?

Here is something that will be on 2 tests/exams and potentially 1 more. Chem test I took last friday was a nightmare. I will show you in pictures.

I walk in the room confident that all my studying will pay off.

thats me studying

What I THOUGHT was going to happen

Me starting the test and knowing stuff! THIS IS SERIOUS!

Halfway through the test

Time is running out and its really close to the end and I don't know what's happening anymore

If I die it will be because I drowned my grief with these

Life...

Do you ever have those moments when you suddenly realize that THIS IS YOUR LIFE. Like, what are you going to do with that. Yeah, get your degree and work. But is that enough? Do you just want to go home and watch some TV and then go to bed?
Do you ever have those moments when you think the world must be out to get you when you suddenly realize THAT'S LIFE. Shit happens, and boy does it happen a lot. I mean I may have gotten more than the average soul, but people have their own problems that are still very real to them. Yes, sometimes I do wonder if there is really a power out to get me, but then I think that would make me paranoid, which would make me crazy, would would be less than ideal, but if you can recognize that you are crazy or think so you probably aren't.
Do you ever have those moments when the surreal happens, something you never thought would happen to you, and LIFE GOES ON? Those things you hoped would never happen to you, they only happened to some other poor souls. But then it does. It's bad but not as bad as you think, and you keep going on. You begin to understand that while you have many things to complain about, that you are actually fairly well off compared to some?
Do you ever have those moments when you realize that your LIFE COULD END AT ANY MOMENT? When that moment of when the idea of any invincibility you thought you had shatters. You begin to realize just how dangerous the world is. How miraculous that you actually made it through the day. The moment of understanding that life is more fragile than you could ever imagine and that stupid cliche, everyone says about tomorrow not being a given, is true. That all those horrible things CAN happen to you and those you know and love.
Do you ever have those moments when you realize that you ARE going to die? Whether it be soon or far from now, by a tragedy or natural cause, it is inevitable.
So what are you going to do with your LIFE?

So terribly bored...

So I sit in the library on a dark and dreary Tuesday. It could be possible that I should be doing some homework or studying... but my neck hurts and is rather stiff, making it increasingly difficult to concentrate. So I thought I should write a blog instead.
Some things that worry me:

1. The final exam for my A&P class. The teacher might actually be a bit crazy, and his tests a wicked hard. Not to mention there is an essay on it. Oh and don't forget the other test we have to take before the exam. And the fun lab exam next week.
2. My survey of chemistry grade being an 84%. This should not be happening and must be stopped. I may actually be getting this stuff though and am pretty able now to do problems and get the correct answers. There's supposed to be an optional test at the end that can cover the average scores of the first 4 tests like Jesus Christ covers our sins. At least that is how I understand it, and I think the analogy is fitting.
3. About getting my car fixed or having general transportation in general.
4. About filing all this insurance, carr accident form things.
5. The fact that the car accident made my already misaligned spine super worse, most specifically my neck (which is why it is so stiff and hurts)
6. There are less than 2 weeks left of normal school, exams are just around the corner! There is going to be an awesome break, but then off to more and more classes. Most specifically A&P 2 from the same crazy teacher. Also at the end of it we have to take a standardized test over both A&P 1 and 2. Scary!
7. The fact I cannot spell very well at all, and sometimes misread words as other words....
8. I'm rather upset that I cannot work out the rest of the week as I need to rest. Didn't work out most of last week either so I could chill and rest and rejuvinate.
9. *hmm what else can I possibly complain about* I have very few piaces of clothing that actaully fit me properly.
10. AND WE DO NOT HAVE FRESH FRUIT OR MY FROZEN BERRIES AT HOME TO EAT!!!!

So I complained, there needs to be a little brightside.

1. I didn't break anything in the car accident (THAT I KNOW OF)
2. I have a nice warm and dry home to stay in.
3. I have my laptop, and it works
4. I have my phone.
5. I bought some new sweaters, well only 2.
6. I may actually be understanding chemistry.
7. I have parents that help me out in tough situations
8. I don't live in the dorm.
9. I'm still clinging to an A- in the A&P, which is a miracle, but I get a B in one of THE easiest classes.
10. I have not, as of yet, spotted a zombie.
11. We have netflix.
12. I have someone's car to borrow for the time being.
13. Christmas will be here soon... even though it really is not a favorite holiday of mine to celebrate. But I do love all those cute, heart warming movies! and A Christmas Carol (by the muppets of course)
14. I'm not paralyzed! 
15. I continue to live through each day even though I'm terribly clumsy and may one day accidentally fall on a knife... it would happen...
16. Even though I cannot work out at the moment, I have an awesome gym that I can work out in.
17. This next lab exam should not be as hard as the last.
18. My family feeds me enough for me to get by( only that though because I prefer not to eat frozen food you must microwave.heat in oven, nor food friend in grease)
19. I really have my whole life ahead of me, and so far I've learned some great life lessons.
20. I have my guitar and can play it!! YAY!
21. One day, I am telling you, I will get a violin and learn to play. It will happen.

There needs to be photos!

Bobby getting his Victorian swag on.