Sometimes I get frustrated...

Sometimes I get fed up.
I get tired.
I get frustrated.

I try so hard at tons of things,
but rarely does anyone congratulate me for them.
I try to improve my personality,
but people will often only see the old me, not the new improved me.
I try to learn as much as I can on everything,
but will never be good enough.

I'm not spectacular, I don't get involved in extracurricular activities.
I don't volunteer at the local humanitarian shelter of sorts.
I will never be special enough or poor enough to get money from the government.

I am just never good enough to get the job.
I try, but I am new at this and if only someone would give me a chance.
I have no experience, but that isn't really my fault.
I apply and apply, but I don't know a ton of people.
And if I do, they aren't hiring.

I am upset I didn't start looking for a job earlier.
I'm upset that I am torn to try and get one and then try to keep it during school.
What is it to get a job, but fail out of school?

I'm smart, but nothing special.